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Don't ever try to type and post something when you can't see the key board properly!
I have just lost a deep, emotional comment for here and I am not going to re-do it now. Suffice it to say that we have to really look into ourselves to know and appreciate what and who we are.
Your daily "things" which do not do much for you as an individual (strength and growth wise) are ok but they are NOT that important. Too often we let them be exactly that- too important- and we start to mold ourselves into a personality which is not us.
All over, for years, we have heard that we should "love yourself" and then you will be better off. Well, it is true. But it's a hard lesson to learn. 'Cos I reckon that's got to be one of the hardest - to love yourself. You can "believe" in yourself, you can know that you are doing ok and so on. But love yourself? We know that we have far too many faults in ourselves that we have to address before we can love ourselves!
Wrong. Loving yourself is actually just coming to terms with all that you are - what you have done and want to do - and then learning that probably, we are not only individuals but have to have the strength to be with others around us. Any bit of sharing and compassion, empathy or daring that we show, makes us understand "ourself" better. At the same time it gives us more confidence that we can partake in this thing called life and society knowing that the bit we have just done has benefited "ourself". Honesty to others and yourself is a big part. Never let yourself down nor do anything which will lower the standards you have set for yourself. Never be too harsh to judge others who might not have that ability yet.

Its hard and I know that there must be millions of people that never look into their lives anywhere like this. True love, I believe, is an understanding, a feeling followed by actions, which then turns your REAL life into happiness, comfort and a prosperity for those who are with you. Thereby you gain and are more fulfilled - and so are those around you, because your calmness does reach them and they benefit from that.

If we, individually, are not doing "bad things", then we are helping each other. If you have something to say about the people and the world around you, then say it. But not in such a manner that it is not heard by the world or the people affected.

Later ......



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Thoughts of Today

This morning, before getting into any routine of work or whatever, I cast my eyes to the sky (something which I do at nights and early morning especially), and saw a beautiful full moon suspended above the horizon. As I was in Johannesburg (South Africa) a city with pollution and all those things which might spoil this type of scenery, I was especially happy to note that this moon held proud. Venus was there to accompany her and together they lit the western horison. The mornings, when they are like this, are quiet and poignant with the onset of the hustle and bustle which will consume our attention during the coming day. I am sure that even I forget that moon and the vista which I have seen in these early morning hours. Maybe I even lose some of the tranquility which they instil in me for the coming day..but I know I do not lose all of it.

When on safari, out in the wilderness, I am so priviledged to enjoy this time of day. Usually alone, not always (it is possible to have safari clients awake in the chilly dark winter mornings!), I use this time to draw an energy into me from that universe out there. Even if it is make-believe, I make it believe. It is a time when all around you can stand still while you think to yourself and feel for yourself.

This particular morning, I was very happy when a child, whom I saw early in the morning, made the first comment of the day..."Isn't the moon so beautiful? It shone through my window and straight onto my face when I woke up". Yes, I would have to agree that that is beautiful and for anyone to appreciate it, is also beautiful.

I have also spent time with a friend, sharing some quiet moments and thoughts, as we all do. But when you see a friend only occaisionally, you get to value that time together. Interraction and exchanges, this is what we are about, us humans. We have all said it - either to ourselves or to our friends- that we must make time to be, time to enjoy, time to savour the simple things, time to get away. How often to do we try and do all of this, but within the framework of a society or a social stigma which dictates what the "time away" and "enjoyment" shall be? Then we are just caught up again - back in the big cog, the rat race..not free.

If you haven't already got it, find yourself something small, but valuable, which can instil this feeling in you each time you need it. Then use it. It helps.

A day on the river, time out in some aspect of wilderness, anything like this which you have, cherish it. All these are things which you do for yourself. Because when you are better, stronger, less troubled and less complicated, then you are a better companion to your friends, partners and colleagues. We, by ourselves, alone, are not as whole as we can be, if we do not share our strengths with others.

Here's to tomorrow morning!